Self-Reflection.

I’ve come to the realization that since I don’t have any sort of “real” obligation to blog on this blog anymore, my posts continue to become more rare as time goes on – and I’m not exactly sure I’m okay with that. (And by real, what I really mean is I’m not doing a 365 challenge anymore.)

Maybe I should revamp it and do a monthly challenge. Or, as I proposed earlier this year, a year’s worth of monthly challenges. I don’t think I can start that just yet however, since it’s in the middle of September. Next month is national blogging month I believe, in preparation for National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) – which is how I started the 365 challenge 2 years ago. I liked it so much I didn’t want to stop. Maybe I’ll get back into the swing this way, but who knows. Even though I’m not terribly busy at the moment, somehow I feel like I have less time to accomplish this than I did when I was going to school and working at the same time – which makes no sense, because I definitely have more time now. I think I’m just lazy. And I don’t like that. I need structure back in my life.

Actually what I really need is a “real” job. Or one that pays better than what I’m currently making.

LIFE IS HARD.

On the bright side, I’m going to be seeing Halestorm in December and this makes me extremely happy and excited.

Also, I got season 6 of The Big Bang Theory on DVD the other day and it’s hilarious. I love the Valentine’s Day episode when Sheldon gives Amy a copy of his personal information and at the bottom it says she’s his emergency contact person. My stomach plummeted and I got all emotional for a second with her. It reminded me of how I felt at graduation when HNI gave me a handwritten recipe. It’s the little things.

The Power of Thoughts

Sometimes I find it ridiculous just how easily my moods can change. Or perhaps more importantly, how powerful thoughts are. Because assumptions are often (with me) negative thoughts that consume my mind and ultimately become these fallacies that I somehow talked myself into finding true, even though they’re more often than not far from the truth.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I find it sickening how easily I can make my mood swing simply by the thoughts I choose to think. I’ve often found that the thoughts I’ve chosen to think manifest themselves into the energy I put out and the energy I get back due to that.

Which only furthers my desire to constantly be in a positive state of mind. I fully realize and accept that negative thoughts and negativity in general is not conducive to anything – I tell people this all. the. time. It is hard advice to follow, however, and I understand that. This shit truly is a circle. Truly. 

But I also understand that sometimes it is crucial to ride the way of negativity. Just not for too long. You gotta know when you have to hop off the surf board, or you’ll drown.

You know?