I’m Okay, I Am.

I feel like I’ve definitely been neglecting this blog and I’m not exactly okay with that.

I’ve been super busy with work for the past 2 weeks though, since it’s the holiday season and retail be crazy as fuck. I’ve made a plethora of sales though, and a few of them have been on the higher end, so that makes me happy. I’ve always got a great pile of gifts under my tree for my family, which for whatever reason also fills me with happiness.

My mom is still driving my absolutely crazy. She has these moments when it’s like she transforms into this ultra dragon-lady cunt and I’m like what the actual fuck is wrong with you and why the fuck are you yelling me? It’s so aggravating. I need to the get fuck out of this goddamn house before she gets worse because I cannot handle these bipolar attitude swings. Last night she called me to ask where she should park her car and I said to park it wherever the heck she wants. Next thing I know she’s yelling at me for having an attitude and I’m like – what? I did not have an attitude but I WILL have an attitude if you tell me I have one when I don’t. That shit really pisses me off.

Earlier she was doing something in my kitchen and started harping about how the drying dish sink is disorganized and you can’t place things in it correctly. I just wanted to smack her and tell her to go the fuck to bed already. I used to look forward to days when she was off from work, but now I find myself wishing she would work even more because she just pisses me off.

I’m at a weird point in my life right now. I can feel it’s like some kind of crossroad. I know I’m nearing a time when I need to start establishing my own roots (and moving the fuck out of this goddamn house) and sever the coddling umbilical cord between myself and my parental household. But I don’t have the funds (yet) to do so and do so in a “safe” way. And by safe, I mean in a way that will allow me to not come back because I can’t support myself.

It’s really distressing and I’m trying my very best to keep a positive attitude and mindset about everything. I’ve felt attacked by negative thoughts and attitudes and people lately and it feels like poison coursing through my veins and I absolutely fucking hate every minute of it.

*breathes in*

Happy holidays!

Merry Christmas Bitches!

Day 25: Morning

Merry Christmas everyone! Hope you’re all having a wonderful day and you all got what you wished for for Christmas.

Morning picture of our tree.

I didn’t really wish for anything material this Christmas, so everything I got, I was thankful for getting at all. Here’s a list of everything I got this year, so far:

– The Hobbit ‘The Ring’ keychain
– The Hobbit bookmark
– The Hobbit leather journal
– Hello Kitty lock and key journal
The Big Bang Theory Soft Kitty hoodie (on backorder until March, so it’s not here yet)
– Chicboom portable speaker keychain (Uncle)
– Woodland charm bracelet, pin, Rick Astley cassette tape, some weird Obama booklet, a flyer for Love Letters Anonymous (Betsy)
– Under the Mistletoe (Justin Bieber), My World Acoustic (Justin Bieber) a Fun album (Alyza)
– Plaid print blanket, candle, makeup (Beth)
– $25 gift card to California Pizza Kitchen (Julia)
– $50 gift card to Outback Steakhouse (BFJ owners)
– Candle, tree ornament, homemade cookies, mug, hot cocoa mixes, Godiva (Carol)
– Hello Kitty coloring books, washcloths, candle, crayons, tree ornament, soap (Roxanne)
– Poinsetta plant (Diane)

And I’m told there’s more to come from some other people.

Last night I bought myself Christmas presents to myself in the form of Amazon MP3 downloads – got Rihanna’s Unapologetic album, Lana del Ray’s Paradise, and Ellie Goulding’s Halcyon. They were only $1.99 each, of course I snatched that up.

Also, today I decided to clean my room but a bit, as well as bring up all the underwear I had downstairs. And then I decided to count the pairs and organize it all. Picture below are 227/228. Threw away 18 after this picture was taken.

I ran out of room actually and originally had 2 rows on the floor, but I moved them up on the bed and managed to squish them to the far right.

It’s My Dick in a Box!!

Day 24: Favorite part of Christmas Eve.

I’m not entirely sure if I should’ve taken a picture of this? Honestly guys, I super suck this month and I’m not even doing this challenge like I should be. Whatever, I’m over it.

My favorite part of Christmas Eve this year was selling shitloads of jewelry at work and then coming home and getting to open the present from my rich uncle from Texas. He got me this really cute thing called a Chicboom and it’s a mini speaker for my portable devices and it’s adorable and I love it and it has real rabbit hair wrapped around the outside.

I’m also planning on watching Rent sometime tonight because it’s completely appropriate. Quote “December 24th, nine p.m. Eastern Standard Time. From here on in I shoot without a script…” Yesss please, I need some Roger in my life right about now.

I’ve also just shown my mom SNL’s Dick in a Box and Motherlover videos and she was thoroughly amused.

A Friend-Infested Christmas <3

Today has been an absolutely glorious day. Minus the part in pattern techniques class when we all wasted a full class trying to grade our jacket slopers into coat slopers and they weren’t working right. But otherwise, there were presents and guest speakers and A LOT of food! It was fantastic.

Job 1 Mini Boss got us all these great mugs with our initials on them from Anthropologie. I was actually going to buy the same mug for myself, and I’m glad I didn’t. She also gave us all homemade Italian cookies. They were DELISH.

I got a Hello Kitty flash drive, Hello Kitty stickers, a Justin Bieber bracelet and Candy Cane Hershey’s Kisses from Alyza; Beth gave me a turtle necklace from Cancun, Mango Butter! and a Glee notepad. I also got a $25 giftcard to Outback Steakhouse and shea butter infused no-slip socks from Top Boss yesterday. It was quite nice. I’m really enjoying the socks right now. My feet feel like they’re rubbing on baby bums. That’s right. Baby bums.

Speaking of presents, I think I mentioned that I made HNI a snowglobe llama for Christmas, right? Well I put it on his llama-infested desk this morning and he seemed genuinely happy about his caped snowglobe llama when he came to visit the library today. Which makes me totally happy because it’s what I’ve been most excited about. Check out the picture I took of it:

I’m also pretty excited cause tomorrow is my one day off before the mega-Christmas-workweek I have coming up. I get to sleep in and do WHATEVER THE FUCK I PLEASE. which may or may not mean I will take a plethora of narcissistic pictures of myself, weather permitting. Hell. Yes.