Frank 2.0

Day 4. 

Today I am grateful that I feel the aches of physical pain because it means that I’m alive. I’m also grateful that I feel emotional pain because it means I still have my humanity.

I’ve thought long and hard about Frank all day (I also ran into him again today at the gym!) and what he said to me about his out of body experience – that if God let him come back to Earth, he was not allowed to help alter anyone’s life. I think this must be the reason we met.

I have a friend who is extremely unhappy – like legitmately suicidal unhappy. It is in my instincts to help people as much as I can and he is a case that I won’t give up on. I think meeting Frank is a sign from God or the universe or what have you that despite my efforts, I cannot change him. And I know that. All I can do is help him to see the change he can be.

But God, if I could, I would take away all his pain and misery and replace it with all the joy and happiness in the world because he deserves it. But I can’t do that. No one can change another person. All we can do is try to infuse our positive thoughts so that they may help themselves.


A couple weeks ago, Mini Boss and I were having some in-depth discussion about I don’t know what and she said “you know, I truly believe God helps those who help themselves.” And I sat there nodding, absorbing the sentiment of that statement. I think she’s right. Whatever forces are out there, I find that they are stronger when one has the willingness and positivity and state of mind to help oneself get to whatever point one wants to be at.

That’s the first step. Learning to be in a more positive state of mind. It’s hard, believe me, I know. But it’s possible. I just wish I could just plug my state of mind into others’ like a plug into a socket.

30 Days of Gratefulness


One of my favorite college teachers who left to go be awesome at Saks Fifth Avenue is doing a 30 day challenge this month where each day she names something she is grateful for. Apparently it’s an annual occurrence entitled the Month of Gratitude. And I was like damn. I like 30 day challenges. This sounds like a good 30 day challenge.

So I decided I should do this 30 day challenge because it would give me an excuse to continue this 365 project. Like, maybe I’ll do a year’s worth of 30 day challenges this year. Maybe. I don’t know. We’ll see how this goes.

Anyway, day 1.

Today I’m thankful for the fact that I’m privileged enough to have a roof over my head and food in my fridge and parents who care about my well being. And a shower. I’m so grateful that I have a shower. I’m also extremely thankful for having absolutely amazing friends who do amazing things for me.

Sweet Red Roo.

Today marks my 400th post on this blog! I didn’t think I’d remember to mention that, but I’m glad I did.

Anyway, I just wanna say that getting to sleep in after waking up with an alarm the whole week is one of the best feelings in the whole world. I really miss the days when I get to do it more often. I treasured them even back then, but I treasure them even more now.

Besides sleeping in, today I got to hang out with my best high school friend Krista and we had delicious authentic Mexican food, visited our high school because the annual craft show was going on, and then I gave her 16 pairs of pants that don’t fit me anymore. It was productive.

Afterwards, I contemplated going out shopping but didn’t know for what. I ended up realizing I needed to make a trip to the alcohol store, and bought 6 bottles of wine and a baggie of peppermint meringues. I was super excited to find that the Manischewitz wines had received a price reduction since the last time I bought wine. I’m pretty excited to try that Sweet Red Roo, actually. Currently I have the Manischewitz Blackberry open because I haven’t had that one before.

I only drink sweet wines.

And then I had a wine drinking Skype date with my best friend Maria with Twilight playing in the background. And now I’m sort of watching Twilight: New Moon. All I can think of is that Jacob is in love with one of Bella’s eggs. And also that he needs to cut his hair already. Jesus.

The Wonderful World of Neopets

Okay. This is what happens when I don’t know what to write about: I screen hop between Tumblr, Facebook, and WordPress, longingly staring at a blank new post page, hoping some stroke of genius will thump me in the brain and make me write something amazing and witty and thoughtful.

Instead, I inevitably go back to Tumblr, scroll some more down my feed, and hop back on here only to write that I don’t know what to discuss tonight. Yup. 

I’ve expressed this to Betsy, who’s suggestion has been “me” both times. In which case, damnit, MAYBE I WILL TALK ABOUT HER.

Let’s see. I mentioned this back in May when it happened, but we met for the first time in person this past May after like 7 or 8 years or something like that of strictly online relations. I’m convinced I met her in an AIM chatroom, but she insists that it was through my flagrant sharing of my AIM username on the Neopets forums back in the day.

Speaking of which, a few days ago she prompted me to go check out my Neopets account (YES I STILL HAVE A NEOPETS ACCOUNT. YES I STILL OCCASIONALLY PLAY IT. DON’T JUDGE ME) and I ended up spending like an hour on there updating my shop all because I was going to buy a Slorg petpet but I didn’t have enough room in my inventory for it so I had to clear it out by putting stuff in my shop and pricing it according to market value.

Illusen is my favorite Neopets faerie.

I’ve discovered that recently I don’t care how much I sell my stuff for as long as I get rid of it. Back in the day I used to be kinda snobby and would hold on to pretty items in my shop because I didn’t want people to buy them. So I would grossly overprice them. Nowadays I price things just a few neopoints above market value so that they can sell and I can make more $$$.

Also, if you have a kid, I highly recommend letting them have a Neopets account. Even when I was younger and far more into it than I am now, I understood that Neopets is a great site to help kids understand real-world finance skills. It teaches you competitive business skills via the shops feature, as well as how to handle stocks, how to take care of a pet, and so many other real-world skills. I always thought that schools should use it as an educational tool in like math classes or something.