A Few Things

Thing 1: I’d really like to get myself a set of Tarot cards. So far I’m drawn to the Dreaming Way deck above all others. I’ve also thought about designing my own deck and doing my own hand-drawn, hand-painted designs. I think that would make the deck even more energized than just buying it off the shelf. But it would also require more time and energy than just giving Amazon $14. We’ll see. It’s in my wishlist.

Thing 2: I’d like to get back into meditating more often again. While reading about Tarot vs. Oracle decks/cards, I found my way to alpha state meditation. What is alpha state of mind? Great question. According to this little article, it is:

The electromagnetic pulse of planet Earth is known as the Schumann Resonance. Although there are fluctuations, this planetary heartbeat maintains an overall measurement of 7.8 Hz. When we relax and slow our brain waves in meditation down to the alpha level – between 14 and 7 cycles per second – and in particular 7.8 cps, we are meshing with the Earth’s deep rhythm and we enter our psychic realms.

So of course I went on Youtube and found some guided meditation videos to help me try it out. And I will be doing so tonight.

Thing 3: Today I was playing around with my crystal quartz pyramid. I stuck it on my forehead (it always makes me feel a lot better about anything and everything when I do that) for a little bit, and then decided to put it on top of my head. After maybe 30 seconds, I tipped my head backwards a little bit and it fell off and shattered in the corner. I’m really rather upset about this for several reasons.

I don’t feel like it’s going to work like it should anymore now that it’s broken and missing a chunk.
I FEEL BROKEN AND LIKE I’M MISSING A CHUNK NOW THAT I’VE HELPED IT ON IT’S WAY TO BEING BROKEN AND MISSING A CHUNK.
Sigh, I definitely feel the need to buy a new one now and they’re not cheap, which leads me into…

Thing 4: I recently got bumped up to low end full time hours, among other kinda yay things at job 1. This means more $ which will be nice. However, I’m desperately trying to save my money for many reasons including:

– Amanda’s wedding and related activities requiring $$$
– Really want to get Chromecast which is not expensive, but would like not to cut deeper into my pockets at the moment
– Desperately need to get my hair cut and colored
– Bills bills bills!!!
– Would love to travel soon (not far, maybe like Chicago or somewhere up north) for a weekend, always need $$$ for that
– Spontaneous events, such as salsa dancing (might/will make a post about that soon)
– General accumulation of “wealth”

No matter how much I’d love to get away from our current system of monetaryness (???) the world is still heavily and prominently dependent on money and therefore I still need it. Sigh.

At least I’m not moping about my nonexistent love life anymore. (It’s still nonexistent.)

Answers

Today I went to church looking for answers to all the stress and anxiety and negative feelings I’ve been feeling lately. I was in a very good mood for about 10 minutes after I woke up while I was getting dressed. Then I went and asked my dad if I could take my mom’s car since hers was in the way and he rather rudely told me no and I should take my car. SOOOOO, I was going to just put her car in the street, as it was the most logical and easiest option (my car is always in the garage) and my dad followed me out and said he’d put HIS car in the street and then I could just move my mom’s car in his spot. Honestly this pissed me off even more. He didn’t have to get up from napping because it literally would’ve been so fucking easy to just put my mom’s car in the street instead of moving two cars. Just. Fucking ridiculous.

So I got myself to church. I rushed. There was no reason to, as always, as the whole standing up sitting down making crosses over oneself thing was still happening for a solid 20 minutes after I arrived at like 11:10. As I said, I went searching for answers. I got none. I couldn’t quite hear what the pope was saying (as usual) and the guys in the foyer where they sell candles were being loud as fuck and talking and banging shit around. It only aggravated me more. However, I did notice while trying to recount how many times Jesus is painted on the walls (18 last time I remember) that the painting of him that is right above your head as you walk into the church – he has a triangle (pyramidal if it were 3D) halo around his head. It’s the only one like that. I found that highly interesting and spent quite a bit of time pondering why only that painting was done like that and why it was done like that at all. 3 is a very powerful number, that’s for sure. I have a multitude of theories about it, but I’m not going to expound.

So while I didn’t get what I wanted in church, after hitting up Meijer, I decided I’d go to Ferndale to the Boston Tea Room because it’s always calming in there and I generally feel at peace. I was hoping I’d find some new stones to add to my growing collection. Instead I found a pair of sterling silver bee earring studs (for only $6.25!) that I attempted to use as nose studs but found the gauge to be too big. I also decided to buy Buddhist mala prayer beads made of cherry quartz. So in a way, I did add new stones to my collection. I’m still a bit bummed I didn’t pick up the ombre citrine set while they still had it. I’m half tempted to go back and get the lavender jade set, but I need to be conserving my money, once again. This was a spiritual thing. I bought them to find peace. I don’t need more.  Although I will probably get more in the future, I’m sure. In a way, I made my answers today.

I still feel discord and I’m trying not to let it get to me. Inner peace and tranquility brings forth outer peace and positive energy. You are what you think. Etc etc.

Dear Etsy Sellers

Dear Etsy Sellers,

I’m gonna try to keep this short since I only have a few things to complain about.

First of all, I’d like to say that most of you have some RIDICULOUS prices for what you’re selling. Not all of you! But a lot of you. Who in their right mind is about to drop $35,000 on a 2 carat diamond ring on Etsy? Really? Or more than $3 on something made of brass or plastic or resin or otherwise worthless. Let’s not fool ourselves here – if you want people to pay high prices, make good products out of high quality materials.

This ring is $35,000. You’d think I’d understand that, being in fine jewelry. I don’t. It’s not even like pure gold. 18 karats? Shitty.

Secondly, all of you who have those illegal BNS things and illegally email other users and harass them to be in the BNS’s need to stop. Like, now. I don’t fucking want 3 emails a day from your ass. Who are you? I don’t care about your shit, you’re not GAP telling me I get to save 40% on something I want, so don’t email me. Thanks.

Thirdly, I still think the majority of you guys are buttholes. I continue to find that many of you hold on to your “trade secrets” like it’s a sin to utter a word about them. I’m not trying to steal your business. I just want to know where I can find assloads of crystals for prices lower than your retail ones. Why is that so hard to divulge? Like, maybe I just want to have buckets of quartz and bismuth. 

That’s really about it. I don’t expect things to change, but boy, wouldn’t it be nice?

– A Fellow Seller

Crystals and Snobs.

My thoughts for today are this:

There should be certain information that should not take 10 million years to uncover and should not be clutched so dearly to people’s chests. In this case, I speak of crystals/precious/semi-precious stones and roughs and where I can purchase them semi-wholesaled so I can make jewelry and sell it.

I’ve spent at least the last hour or more googling in earnest trying to find a proper answer, and can’t seem to come across a legit enough website with the answers I’m looking for. I stooped low enough to contact various (snobby) sellers on Etsy and ask where they get their shit from. I know I’m either going to get no response or some kind of evasive answer that will include BUY MY STUFF. Which is ridiculous. Like, yes, I understand you don’t want competition, but uh, you’ve GOT competition already! Another rock in the pool is not going to make a difference.

I mean really. This isn’t some kind of big secret. Share your infos.

I asked a good chunk of sellers on Etsy about 2 years ago where they get their mini dollhouse bottles from and I got the above reactions: no response or “oh, well, just buy my stuff.” Umm, no! That’s not why I PMed you, asshole!

But anyway, I’ve wanted to make my own crystal jewelry for a while now. Except I lack crystals. Or sources that could point me to sellers. I bought 2 pink quartz points from a crystal store in downtown Ferndale last summer, but they’re not wholesale. However, I only paid maybe 2 bucks for them? I don’t know, I need to research this more.

Painting Eggs Like A BEAST!

I slept absolutely fantastically last night for about 11 hours. And then my brain turned on around 10:45 this morning and all I could think about was whether my dad had noticed that I laid out my crystals on his car last night for purifying (full moon!) and whether he read the note I left him about taking them off his car before he drives anywhere. So I tossed and turned for about 10 minutes before I finally woke up and found that my mom thankfully took them off the car in a napkin. The quartz I wear around my neck looks much clearer. That usually happens when I purify them with water too. I’ve always found that incredibly interesting.

Anyway, today is “Easter Eve” or some shit. So I decorated like 18 eggs traditionally – with a pysanky, wax, and a candle. I still need to burn off the wax, but they turned out pretty phenomenally, IMO. Much better than last year even! For some reason, my hand was quite steady this year, and I had the patience to do some legitimately “intense” eggs. I can’t wait to take pictures tomorrow. There’s one that’s got this full egg symmetrical design at like 12 different angles. It’s my favorite. I also did one with trees all over and painted it green, and one with birds in flight. They’re all unique!

We don't fuck around in Romania when it comes to decorating eggs.

When I came home from work today, my mom gave me my Easter present! She got me the Celebrate! gift set from Lush. I was so excited. I haven’t opened it yet, but I can occasionally get a waft of Lush from the box and it’s like 6 feet away and wrapped up.

And now, Day 7: What is your dream job and why?
My dream job is being top boss of a fashion empire. Like, I want to be the person with the business cards that read “I’m CEO, bitch.” and I want to tell people what to do. And I mean, I want to tell A LOT of people what to do – hence the usage of the term ‘empire‘. I don’t play when it comes to that part of it. I want to have a plethora of minions. Like a design team. But I want to be leader. I’ve always had the innate feeling that I was born to lead, no matter what path my life would go down career wise.