Instinct.

Last night before I went to bed, I was on Tumblr (obviously) and one of the last posts that I reblogged haunted me all throughout today. This is the post I’m talking about, but here is the content and gif in case you’re lazy and don’t want to follow the link:

Many classic horror icons and other disturbing creatures share common characteristics. Pale skin, dark, sunken eyes, elongated faces, sharp teeth, and the like. These images inspire horror and revulsion in many, and with good reason. The characteristics shared by these faces are imprinted in the human mind.

Many things frighten humans instinctively. The fear is natural, and does not need to be reinforced in order to terrify. The fears are species-wide, stemming from dark times in the past when lightning could mean the burning of your tree home, predators could be hiding in the dark, heights could make poor footing lethal, and a spider or snake bite could mean certain death.

The question you have to ask yourself is this:

What happened, deep in the hidden eras before history began, that could effect the entire human race so evenly as to give the entire species a deep, instinctual, and lasting fear of pale beings with dark, sunken eyes, razor sharp teeth, and elongated faces?

The last paragraph really got to me. My first instinctual thought was “aliens”, I’m not gonna lie. Or aliens to us now. I turned on all the lights last night before meditating, when I went to get water, and when I woke up this morning, it was the first thought to flood back to me. I think the question of what happened in the depths of our humanity that scarred us instinctually is not only valid, but extremely important.

I’m watching an old Ancient Aliens episode right now, and they’re talking about the origins of Satan throughout the cultures of the world and what he was represented as (reptilian-like, similar to the description in the above Tumblr post). I think this is related. I need to ruminate on this subject further before I come to any solid, concrete theories of my own. But I think it’s a great question to ask and an even greater journey of speculation to discovering something important about our past.

Sales Sales Sales

I may complain about working in retail a lot (and I have every damn reason to) but on days when I’m kept busy and there aren’t a lot of negative experiences, I don’t mind it so much. I had a lot of sales today and I had a generally good outlook and presented myself well to customers, so I think they also helped. I was a bit flustered for the last hour however because I had a lot of customers last minute and I really try to avoid being in the store past closing time. Ain’t nobody got time f’dat.

Relatedly, I wish my coworker would answer my text already because I really need to switch with her for a day so I can do a craft show. And I need to go to Joann’s/Michaels tomorrow to get more jewelry making supplies. I hope this all goes well.

And now I will continue semi-watching Ancient Aliens. Night ya’ll!

Alien Files

So I’m watching Unsealed: Alien Files and I’m absolutely loving it right now. While the delivery of the information they’re giving is a little cut and dry, and only really touches base, there has been quite a bit of info I’ve never seen of heard of before.

I’m still processing the episode I’m currently watching, but I wanted to talk about the government’s hilarious ongoing denial of extraterrestrial existence and Earth visitation. The prior episode was the show’s “top 10” UFO/alien encounters and during one of the countdown members, they were saying how the government said that it was just a weather balloon.

The whole weather balloon bullshit makes me laugh because REALLY? Do people actually still believe that to be a true, legitimate explanation? Am I the only one who thinks it sounds absolutely ridiculous? Like how many more times are they going to blame “flares” and “weather balloons”?

 

After Earth: Fear is Not Real

Tonight I went and saw After Earth with my mom. It was a pretty good movie, and on a scale of movies that I’ve seen recently, it was better than Iron Man 3 but not as good at Star Trek: Into Darkness.

Anyway, there was a part where Will Smith’s character, Cypher, is telling his son Kitai (real life son Jaden Smith) about the first time he ghosted. I honestly dipped out of that part of the movie mentally and didn’t hear parts of it, HOWEVER, I did hear the most poignant line of the whole movie, which is also shortened into the tagline of this movie.

Fear is not real. It is a product of thoughts you create. Do not misunderstand me. Danger is very real. But fear is a choice.

This really stood out to me as something that is not only true, but something that I need to incorporate in my life more. Throughout the whole movie, I was obsessing in the back of my mind about my molar that is aching and probably needs a root canal. I don’t really want to admit that it needs one, and it has greatly to do with fear. I do not like pain (who does?) but I can bear it if I have to. I haven’t yet come across pain that I haven’t been able to get over. It’s all carnal. It passes, as we do in these bodies.

But anyway, what I’m trying to say is that I respect and admire this line. There’s more to it, as it’s a whole monologue, but the section about “it is a product of thoughts you create” cannot be any more true. Cypher talks about fear as an emotion that is created by the unknown. It’s a useless emotion. It’s like worrying – it’ll give you something to do, but it won’t get you any where.

As I continue my journey of conquering fears this year, I also continue on the journey of eliminating fear from my life. It is not an easy task. It never has been, it never will be. But as fear is a choice that we make, so is strength, so is courage. It’s the ability to choose what will give you the benefit that makes the difference.

Gravitational Time Dilation

Today I was watching some alien mystery documentary, and one of the scientists who was making commentary mentioned that Einstein developed a theory called gravitational time dilation. This is an actual difference of elapsed time of two different events as measured by observers differently situated from gravitational masses, in regions of different gravitational potential. The lower the gravitational potential, or rather, the closer the clock is to the gravitational potential, the slower time passes by. In other words, time can be slowed down by gravity.

So that got me thinking. Perhaps it makes sense, somehow, that in dreams, when we’re running away from negative influences, it’s hard for us lift our feet and run, and time passes agonizingly slowly. But why? Maybe we experience GTD in our dreams. I certainly feel like our unconscious mind does a lot of weird things and is vulnerable to many phenomena.

And when I ask that “why?”, I am reverted to countless memories of too many people saying that the more answers you get, the more questions arise.

This gives me more reasons to meditate. Another thing on my list I need to cross off. Except it’s not a one time kinda thing.