Borgia Obsession

Let me tell you all how challenging it is to pace myself and watch only one episode of season 2 of Borgia at a time.

I just finished the first episode, and I’m going to practice self-control and not watch another episode. It was a great season starter, and I fall more deeply in love with Cesare as the episodes go by.

Last night I watched a behind the scenes thing for season 2 with Mark Ryder (Cesare) as the interviewee and one of the things he talked about was that in preparation for season 2, he hit up the gym – a lot. WELL LET ME TELL YOU ALL, THERE IS NO DOUBT ABOUT THAT.

Not only does he have the whole sexy bearded man with flowing long hair thing going on, but those enhanced muscles only aid in making him look extraordinarily sexy. I mean, I literally might pee my pants staring at this man. Omg.

I have lost my underwear.

Anyway, during one of the scenes, Cesare is reading a book by Marcus Aurelius, in which he reads aloud “If you are plagued by externals, it is not they who trouble you, but the importance you give them.”

I found this to be exceptionally poignant and utterly true. If you’re being bothered by outside forces/people that you cannot control, it is not those forces or those people who are truly troublesome to your well-being, but rather the acknowledgment and the value which you allow them to have in your life.

For example, I work with my ungrateful cousin who purposely takes longer routes around the store to avoid the jewelry counter when I’m there. Her presence is bothersome to me. Today as I saw her pass by, I realized that I did not feel the general hatred I usually do when I look her way, and further realized that she is really rather insignificant in my life and does not deserve any amount of emotion from me.

It is a challenge to finally realize this and to implement it, but goddamnit, it’s among the most freeing feelings in the world.

Mark Ryder is a Panty Dropper

First let me say that I did not end up doing anything I wanted to do these past 4 days I’ve had off. They’ve been half miserable due to pain, and half self-loathing at my eating habits. However, my hormones are whacky at the moment, so I forgive myself a bit there.

Today I was supposed to go to the zoo with Alyza, but she couldn’t make it. Instead, I spent about 3 or 4 hours in the sun, swimming, reading, more swimming. ¬†After showering, I watched a few episodes of Blue Mountain State with my brother, then the movie Immortals, which I ogled the likes of Henry Cavill again, and tried to devise some kind of plan where I could somehow meet him in real life. (I hope one day I’ll be significant enough to actually meet him.)

Afterwards, I decided it was time to indulge in Borgia. I watched the last two episodes of season 1 and HOLY MOTHER OF GOD, CESARE IS SO FUCKING HOT.

*breathes deeply*

When I first started watching this series, I remember thinking Mark Ryder (Cesare) definitely looked he belonged in the 15th century with this chiseled, sharply angled face and mildly flowing hair. As the episodes went on, I started to realize he was actually attractive to me in that nerdy way, unlike his on screen brother Juan, played by Stanley Weber, who I find attractive in the conventional sense. (He also looks a bit like Henry Cavill.)

He resembles Henry’s Charles Brandon when he’s dressed as Juan.

In the last episode of the season, I was hardcore rooting for Cesare and Lucrezia. I really don’t care that they’re brother and sister, they ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER AND I WAS REALLY DISAPPOINTED THAT THEY DIDN’T END UP BANGING CAUSE OF STUPID PEDRO LUIS.

I know from stalking the Tumblr tags that Cesare and Lucrezia do end up having a romance and whatnot, so I’m happy to know that that scene wasn’t just a tease. BUT I’M LIKE 100 KINDS OF EXCITED TO START SEASON 2 AND SEE THIS SHIT FOR MYSELF.

OMFGGG

And also, I want to drool over Mark Ryder endlessly. I found his Twitter and tweeted my burning love for his face. I kinda hope he responds. Maybe we’ll even be Twitter friends. #YOLO #iwillmeethimsomedaytoo #brblostmyunderwear

BE MINE. DO THIS TO ME.

I Love Organization

I have finally completed another phase in my room cleaning expedition: my closet. The one with hangers, not the bookcase, that’ll be another day.

I organized everything by season, color, style, and pairing coordination as well as cleaned out the bottom of my closet and moved all my shoes down there, along with my purses – although I need to cushion that section with something. Even though I vacuumed and cleaned the bottom of my closet, I feel weird just placing my purse down there nakedly without anything holding them or cushioning them. I might have to go to Target or something for a big plastic container or a cork board roll.

I did end up going to Ikea today for organizers, however. I considered buying some kind of wooden mini bookcases to stick on the shelf in my closet, but decided that it would just add weight to the shelf, especially with clothes thrown in there. So I opted with the Drona series fabric boxes ($4.99 each) and tilted them on their sides to created more storage and utilize the height space I have on the shelf.

I’m very pleased with the outcome, although I think I might also buy another two boxes or so for the other side of the shelf where I currently have a few purses and some books, again to ulitize the height space.

I can’t even begin to describe how happy this organization has made me. It’s like everything just fits in perfect order and all I want to do is keep my closet doors open and stare at my work all day.

Oh! I also bought a new clock – again – thinking that because it doesn’t have a second hand, it won’t tick. I was wrong. I spent $15 on this clock, guys. Had I known it was going to tick, I’d have just left my $6 clock from Target on my wall. But, since Ikea is ~32 miles away, I’m not going to go get my money back. So I moved the Target clock to the bathroom and took down the ghetto bird clock we’ve had in there since the dawn of time.

Still on my list of things to do:
– Clean the side cubbies of my desk
– Clean both Ikea bookcases
– Look through my bookshelf and eliminate books I don’t want anymore
– Look through the 2 foot high stack of magazines I’ve accumulated for the past year
– Wash my carpets
– Paint the doorway and lining of my room. Maybe my closet too.
– Paint the stairwell
– GET TAN

Loneliness.

Every now and then, there are strings of words that really hit me with profoundness.

Tonight, reading the last secret on PostSecret, I came across this:

And I agree. Like the quote from After Earth, where Will Smith says “Fear is not real. It is the product of thoughts you create. Do not misunderstand me. Danger is very real. But fear is a choice.” I find this one to be equally valuable and true.

Does loneliness truly exist? No. Singularity exists. Loneliness is an emotion. We create it. We feed it. And we can break it. I feel like this is one of those lines that can bring someone out of a slump, if they are in the mindset to accept these words of wisdom.

Man of Steel = Top Favorite Superhero Movie Ever (Spoilers)

I’m really enjoying this whole going to the movies frequently routine that has been established in the last few weeks – it might be more expensive than I care to really admit, but HOLY FUCK MAN OF STEEL.

Okay, let me just say first and foremost 2 things:

1. I knew this movie was going to be really good when I first heard about it almost 2 years ago. I KNEW IT.
2. I’m totally gonna go super mega fangirl here and just put it out there THAT I WAS TOTALLY A HENRY CAVILL FAN LONG BEFORE ALL YOU OTHER PEOPLE JUMPED ON THE OMG HE’S SO HOT BANDWAGON. Not that it matters in any kind of way that’s going to do something for somebody, but I’m just sayin’.

REAL TALK.

Now that that’s out of my system, let’s talk costumes.

Again, being a fashion design major, the first thing I noticed (besides Henry’s irresistible everything) were the costumes and the integration of the costumes with the Kryptonian aesthetic. In retrospect, the overall look seemed rather reptilian, which I remember thinking for a few seconds reminded me of some real world alien theories that state that should we encounter extra-terrestrial life, it would be most likely (apparently) that they would be reptilian in nature.

I personally quite enjoyed the intricacy of the costumes and the resemblance to reptilian scales. And again, I liked that this was reflected in the world of Krypton, from their buildings, to their ships, to the various tiny details throughout everything else.

I also noticed a few things throughout the movie that I thought were kind of funny. Firstly, when Zod and his allies were frozen and sent into Phantom space, their capsules legit looked like penises. Giant, flying dicks. And I’m not the only one who noticed this, as Tumblr tags have proven.

Secondly, I don’t know who else caught these bits, but I really enjoyed the water tower with “SMALLVILLE” written across it, as well as the oil tanks in Metropolis with “LEXCORP” stamped largely on them. They were both brief shots, but enough that I got excited and nudged my brother about them.

Thirdly, I don’t know if I’ve just been honed in noticing this kind of thing, but there were maybe a few shots of Superman when he was hovering where he looked like Jesus on the cross. Not like in the face or anything, but in his stance – arms spread out, legs together. Subliminal messaging perhaps?

I enjoyed the plot of the movie as well. It was captivating, which I think is crucial for a movie that’s 2 and a half hours long. Superman has always been my favorite superhero, even when people have tried to sway me. (Sorry Batman fans, your hero is a little bitch.) This movie has easily catapulted itself into my favorites and has painted Superman as even more awesome than he already was to me.

10/10 A++ would see it again.

Retail Taints My Mood

Wow, I didn’t realize I hadn’t updated here in ~5 days. What is that?

So I went to see Juanes in concert on Friday night with my mom. It was a lot of fun. Before the music started, my mom disparted and got herself drinks and then by the end of the concert, I had found she had squeezed her way back into the pit, a few bodies away from me.

I had my camera with me, so I got some pretty good shots, especially since I was 4th and 3rd row from the stage most of the night. By the end of it, I was in 2nd row, almost in first, but people wouldn’t budge enough for me to get closer. It was okay though. because with my lens I was able to get up closer.

This was taken with my phone, not my camera.

The concert itself was fantastic. It was all in Spanish and the theater was filled with hispanics from around the Metro Detroit Area as well as quite a handful of white people like myself, who appreciate latin music. I personally greatly enjoyed the encore performance, as that was when he sang songs I knew the words to.

All that aside, today when I went in work, I looked over my schedule for the upcoming days that I work and realized that the next 5 I’m scheduled, I close every single time. I was half joking when I said it’s time to look for a new job cause the music playlist in my store is the shittiest you’ll ever hear, but now I’m legitimately serious. I’m fucking sick and tired of working in retail. I’m sick of customers, I’m sick of shitty pay, I’m sick of getting home at 10 PM.

Although I will say the one nice thing about working part time is that I do get days off, and oh god, they are glorious.

It’s time.

If any of you know of any fashion design related jobs, holla at yo girl. But seriously.

Travels & Ultrasounds

Today has been an interesting day.

My medical adventures included a root canal – which honestly wasn’t that bad. I felt some pain, but my dentist “topped me off” with anesthetics. It was really the whole having my mouth open for about an hour that was the worst. By the time she was cleaning out the nerve, I was like OMG CAN THIS BE OVER WITH ALREADY, MY JAW FUCKING HURTS.

I had to pick up antibiotics and pain pills after, and while I was waiting, I FINALLY found the kind of hair clips I’ve been searching EVERYWHERE for. I was super excited. I also went to Barnes and Noble and found some really great books that I did not buy because pssh, Amazon.

Then I went in to get an ultrasound. It was a relatively amusing experience. My ultrasound tech definitely had a sense of humor – she printed out screenshots of the ultrasound and circled my uterus, captioned it “my uterus” and also captioned my bladder as “my very full bladder” and then stuck them in a “baby’s first picture” envelope. I totally have that shit on my fridge. No, I’m not pregnant, btw.

After all my wonderful medical adventures today, I hit up DTRO with Kristen and we had a LET’S GORGE OURSELVES ON DELICIOUS FOOD evening. And also discussed me flying in to Boston at the end of her teaching gig there in August, and then spending a week exploring the eastern seaboard. I said yes.

The best veggie enchiladas I’ve ever had. I couldn’t finish them, too much food baby.

Now I just have to tell my boss HEY, I’m actually gonna be gone for TWO weeks back to back in August! Sorry! And also gotta see whether I’ll be getting surgery. Hoping I don’t, fingers crossed.

I’m pretty excited about my 3 day weekend this week. My upcoming schedules are pretty fucking glorious. I have like 4 days off in a row one of these weeks. I’m planning on traveling somewhere then. I don’t care if it’s just to like Frankenmuth or something. I’M GOING SOMEWHERE DAMNIT, and it will not be just DTRO or Ferndale.