Love Notes to Yourself

Clearly I’ve given up on the December photo challenge here as I haven’t properly adhered to it in several days. It’s cool though, IDGAF.

Today is New Year’s Eve and I think I will attempt to do the 365 challenge of writing down something that made me happy each day (though not each day can hold such happiness all the time, so I’m not gonna pressure myself into writing something EVERY DAY) and put it in a jar and a year from today, I will open the jar and read all of the notes.

I think people should do this anyway. Like just because. Sometimes you need to feel loved and you need a reminder that you are loved and that good things do happen to you and so on and so forth.

You should all do this with me. Just sayin’.

Before & After

Okay, here’s what I got tonight.

I just spent the past half hour or so making this before and after compilation. Here’s to another year, and to another compilation one year from today where I will be even smaller!

 

Last Night, I Got Really Drunk

So last night was maybe not one of the best nights of my life, but it was most certainly one of the best nights I’ve had in a really really really long time.

A group of us from my high school graduating class went out drinking in Downtown Royal Oak and we all got a little plastered, myself included. I’m a really cheap date though, so I was drunk by drink 3 and super happy by drink 4. And then I had a whiskey shot and I was in La-La fucking Land, because apparently it doesn’t really matter what alcohol I’m drinking, I’m always a really happy drunk.

This was followed by a lemon drop shot and another whiskey shot. I can’t remember if I drank anything else after that – I don’t think I did. But I did spill a whole glass of iced water on myself and one of the guys who I’ve had a mini crush on for ages drunkenly blew on my legs in a rather humorous attempt to dry me off.

I’m really fucking drunk here.

All in all, it was really nice to catch up with the few people that showed up. (That guy mentioned a statistic that said something about after your graduate you only really see about 10% of those people after.) And alcohol really is a very nice social lubricant. Were it not for the fact that we were all pretty drunk by the time me and Krista left, I’m pretty sure we all wouldn’t have been so friendly and happy to each other. But it’s nice. We hugged people we hadn’t hugged before and left feeling good that we decided to go.

The funny thing is my horoscope for today seems to be in line with this:

“The cosmos is empowering you now with the ability to look at your world and your life in a new way. You are granted a brief period of time in which you can evolve to that point. This glimpse into the possibility of complete immersion in the present will hopefully alter your outlook on all of life, and will enable you to reach for more for yourself and for those you love. Once you see that it’s possible, keep at it, Moonchild. Christmas may be over, but you may want to consider this gift from the universe a Christmas miracle.”

I read that and thought if this means I should go out and drink and be social more, I’m okay with that. As long as I’m not spending all my money, cause drinking out is expensive.

Cheering Up with Chinese

Day 27: Nighttime.

Well, after a long day at work that consisted of mostly being on Tumblr and contemplating the current state of my life, I came home to Chinese food and it made everything just a little bit better.

However, I’m still frustrated with a lot of things. Especially the current outlook on the internship front. Thankfully, yesterday I decided to open my mouth and ask about internships at Anthropologie and they gave me an application to fill out. I think I mentioned this yesterday. I plan on turning it in tomorrow and I really, really hope this goes well. Like, I will squeal like a child and I might even cry.

And if it goes well, then I can continue lamenting over my lack of a love life and the frustrating state it is currently in. Because for like a hot second, something almost existed and I had hope and I was like SHIT SON, WUT. And then it fizzled and then suddenly it BURST INTO FLAMES AGAIN and I was like OMFG WUT!? And then it came to a rather screeching halt and I’m kind of confused and annoyed and goddamnit – I know I can’t have everything I want, but why am I continuously denied this of all things? WHY.

After Christmas Shopping

Day 26: Grateful

Today I’m grateful that despite it taking me over an hour to get home from Somerset, I made it through a snowstorm with my mom’s shitty windshield and windwipers helping absolutely 0% with visibility.

Literally what I was seeing even when the wipers going.

On the bright side though, I did snatch some decent deals at the mall today.

I bought:

– a cocktail dress from American Eagle
– a ceramic bowl, glass teacup, and sky blue eurosham from Anthropologie
– 3 diamond shaped ornaments and Belgian Linen hand cream from Restoration Hardware
– 3 sherpa fleece sheep ornaments, lemon lotion, 5 mini hand santizers, 1 mini sanitizer holder from Bath & Body Works
– 2 workout tanktops from Gap

I also asked at Anthro about internships and they gave me an application to fill out.  Hopefully this road winds the right way. FINGERS CROSSED!